Tired

You were never fit

But you qualified anyway.

But in your arrogance you think you qualified yourself

And you sit and drink

And stand and smoke

And pace and lie

And say prayers with your mouth

But your heart’s not in it

And you say you are trying but your fruit is rotten

You make a lie sound like the truth

And you cry for forgiveness and you lie about changing

And you do it again

And you taint your hands.

You are supposed to remain clean

But you think you define what clean means

Your heart is not in it and your actions show it

And you forgive because you must

But slowly your heart’s not in it

You put on a good show and you pray for the best

But the best aint that great and your heart’s not in it and you lie to yourself

God can clean it, but your heart’s not in it

And you are reminded to humble yourself
and the lower you go the more the truth shows

And even more your heart’s not in it

And your faith is suspended

And you don’t want it anymore.

pic via @afrodyssee