When you develop an infatuation for someone you
always find a reason to believe that this is exactly the person for you. It
doesn’t need to be a good reason. Taking photographs of the night sky, for
example. Now, in the long run, that’s just the kind of dumb, irritating habit
that would cause you to split up. But in the haze of infatuation, it’s just
what you’ve been searching for all these years.”
― Alex Garland, The Beach
― Alex Garland, The Beach
**
You are seducing me. I’ve never had to
work this hard to keep from falling. I call you four, five times because I love
the way you answer the phone. Your voice is low, smooth, controlled. I don’t
pay attention to what you say. I’m listening to the tones, the inflections of
your accent; I hear your smile. Your voice lulls my senses and seduces my mind
into forbidden territory. You unravel my self-control so effortlessly; I’m
ashamed. I’m supposed to be stronger than this.
With others it is always no. With you,
the yes rolls off my tongue too quickly, too easily.
I close my eyes to pray. To pray for self
control. To pray to flee your seductions. It’s a half-hearted attempt;
admittedly, I want to give in to you.
You ask me something and I say yes.
With you, I stumble over my words.
I can’t focus.
I forget my reasons why.
When I call you, your voice hypnotizes
me.
With you, hello sounds like come here.*
|Keep watching and praying that you may not enter into temptation; the spirit is willing, but the flesh is weak| Matthew 26:41
*Salt, by Nayirrah Waheed
